So, I’m still not entirely sure what I want to do with this site, but I’m hoping to start updating a lot more. I was recently thinking about all the times I’ve sat down to write here and just been unable to come up with anything that anyone would want to read. Looking back through the crystal lenses of hindsight I realized that when I try to write something while I’m unhappy, it pretty much just sucks. Completely. As happy as I always seem(because I do, I’m a good actor) I have almost always been upset or depressed about something. I think a large part of that came from being lonely. But really the reasoning as to why I was sad is neither here nor there.
Recently someone has come in to my life who’s given me an entirely new outlook. I’ve been going through the day wishing that I could whistle while I work. I can’t whistle though so that plan was fucked up completely. I’ve been thinking about plans I never though I would make. Thinking thoughts that I never believed would cross my mind. The most important thing I’ve realized though… I’m happy. I’m actually happy for the first time in a long time. I don’t think I realized how oppressive my feelings of loneliness and not connecting really were. It put a cloud over everything I did and just made me feel blah. So yeah, I’ve got a new outlook and hopefully I’ll start doing something with this site. I’m considering documenting some of the bike builds I’m doing… possibly do a “build journal” of my bike. Throw in a few “this is what I’m reading that is awesome” and “this video game is amazeballs” and “GO BUY THIS ALBUM RIGHT NOW OR YOU HATE AMERICA” posts and you’ll probably have about everything on my site classified.
Speaking of…. if you do not currently own Dropkick Murphys – Signed and Sealed in Blood you need to go buy it. Like now. Go do it. I’ll wait… come on though, I don’t have all day. Hurry up and finish. Okay… now that you have that. Go listen to it. Extremely awesome. What’s that you say? You don’t own ALL their albums? You want the terrorists to win don’t you? Go get them.